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Career thoughts…

When I was a teenager, I never thought I would end up as a Teacher. I wanted to be either a world famous author or a high end product designer.

But where life took me wasn’t where I had envisioned it. It’s odd to look back at it now and wonder why on earth I was so focused on those two things. Funny, thing is, two years before I made those decisions on my career path, I was set on becoming a Fast Jet Pilot or a Helicopter Pilot in the RAF…

Now I sit here, practically half way through my life and I’ve started thinking about my career path again.  I still want to be a world famous author, but I would also like to get back into teaching properly (I’ve had enough of a break from it, thank you very much) and I wouldn’t mind designing and selling Jewellery.

I do the last one as a hobby mostly – it’s something to help my creative side emerge more clearly. The teaching, I enjoy. I love the interaction with the kids and teaching them new things (strangely difficult to do that), but I could do without the politics and the target setting that the Government seems to want teachers to partake in.

Writing has been the one constant in my life. From forming my first letters to reading my first book by myself (Enid Blyton’s The Far Away Tree)  my mind has always been half in the fantasy world of stories.

If you listen to my partner, he’d say that I’m always in a Fantasy world, but that’s another story…

So this is where I am at my crossroads. I am out of work (until the supply agencies I’m with get themselves in gear) and I’m wondering what I should really be doing with my life.

Do I forget teaching more than 16 hours a week and concentrate on my writing? Do I look for a permanent teaching job that will take me away from my writing and possibly my family? Do I take a admin job and write part time?

When you get to my age, you don’t think that you’ll be needing to answer these sorts of questions.

Hmm…