Various Feelings

Relieved. So relieved it wasn’t my fault.
How different I was.
The times I failed.
The things I couldn’t do.
I’m just wired differently.
I always was.

Angry. So angry that it took so long to find out.
That nobody knew.
Expectations so high
I could never fulfil them.
Naughty and lazy.
That’s what I thought.

Contented. So contented to have discovered.
Found the real me.
At long long last.
Finally allowing myself
A more gentle life.
Recovery time.

Sad. So sad for the lost years of my youth.
Pretending, wasting energy.
Having to start over
Middle aged and tired.
Rebuilding
A shattered life.

Hopeful. So full of hope for a new life.
New strategies and plans.
Learning what works.
Better for me.
Being myself.
Finally relaxing.

Broken. So very very broken.
Always was.
Always will be.
Ambitions shattered.
Permanent.
Impaired.

Excited. So excited by the information.
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