Where, oh where, oh where have I been?

I’ve been to London to visit the… nah… I’m not quite that famous yet! Her Majesty hasn’t invited me to anything at all… I’m just playing.

What I have been up to is wrestling with my ASD. I’ve had so many Brain Fog days that it’s felt like I’m permanantly living in a cloud. It’s upended my finances, ruined many moments with my family that should have otherwise been wonderful and put Puff’s motivation at an all time low.

When I have a Brain Fog day, it’s like I can only just see the next task in front of me and anything to do with the future (even as near as tomorrow) is completely invisible. The technical term is called “Executive Dysfunction” (I’ll let you go look it up if you feel that curious) and it plays merry havok with my ability to live day to day, let alone write, create or make something.

A road disappearing into the fog amongst trees.

This illustrates my "Executive Dysfunction" perfectly.
I know I was supposed to be doing something…

In practical terms, this means that I haven’t written anything for ages, publishing and anything more complicated in the craft section of my world than crocheting my blanket has been out of the question.

It’s been so hard to try and focus on anything other than day to day life that I almost gave up on life itself… almost.

Then I started a woodworking class – decided to do something different for a change – and it has slowly drawn me out of that fog bank.

It’s not quite a sunny outlook yet, but I have managed a few words on “Curious World” as part of my NaNo project, so the weather has moved from solid fog bank, to light mist.

Puff is relieved and his motivation level is climbing, but we are certainly by no means out of the clouds yet…

Give it time.

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