Continuing Personal Development…

A while back I was feeling pretty unsuccessful.  I don’t sell a lot of books and for some reason I equate the number of books that I do sell with my personal sense of achievement. That hasn’t changed… I have.

Since we moved to this town, I’ve been feeling very low and trying to write when my brain refuses to focus and co-operate with my muse is almost impossible. I started doing various art & craft courses – mostly to get myself out of the house and talking to adults more. I was also trying to keep my hand in with the techniques so that I could teach them if I ever went back to work (I’m a Design & Technology / Art & Design Teacher remember?)

One thing that the courses have done is give me more confidence in my own abilities. Writing is a very solitary pursuit and I had thought that doing the courses would stop me writing, but  practising my other creative skills and socialising with people face to face, other than just with Writers and Artists online,  I found it revved up my writing muse and I found that I was managing to write something on my WIP’s every day.
Don’t get me wrong – I love my online friends; they stop me going crazy and make me feel better about myself, but the face to face interaction makes me feel less like a hermit.

So here I am nearly at the end of may, with over 50,000 words into Teacups & Time Travel. I’ve also written a flash story and a short story for two different anthologies (although I have no idea if they’ve got in or not) and I’m working on another one. I’ve also started looking at my blogsite here and my branding etc in the hope that I can improve my chances of selling my work, using the Panoptic Foundations Website Planner.

I’m not going to be going back into teaching for a long while – and when I do, it’s almost certainly going to be Adult Education rather than Secondary Education; it’s not that I don’t like teaching kids (I do) but I need the freedom to be able to teach what I want and how I want, rather than having to stick to the Curriculum that the Dept of Ed force on us and I find the other side of Secondary education (marking, reports, politics etc) far too stressful to enjoy the Teaching side.

So I’m going to continue writing and publishing. I’m going to continue taking courses, crafting and designing… and hopefully between the two, my sense of achievement will latch onto something other than my sales figures!

April is on it’s way…

…And that only means one thing in my world!

Writing, and lots of it.

Yup,  I’m doing Camp NaNoWriMo again.

(I am somewhat of a glutton for punishment methinks)

This year I am revisiting a project that I started in November 2015 during NaNoWriMo.

Click on the cover pic to see the synopsis

Teacups & Time Travel – Take One…

The word count on that one went fairly well – I managed 26,633 words – until I hit my usual nemesis… the middle of the book!

So I put it aside until the following April and my 4th Camp NaNoWriMo. This time I decided to come at the same story from a different angle…

Click cover pic to see synopsis

Teacups & Time Travel – Take 2…

This time I managed just 21,259 words – my muse departed for a holiday and left me high and dry!

I’ve added a few thousand words to it since – the word count currently stands at 37,867 and I’d really like to get:

a) the story finished.
b) the word count up to a min of 70,000.

That’s assuming that life doesn’t distract me too much and that I can get my current WIP finished.

Talking of which, I’ve got to 66, 907 words and killed off a few characters along the way. I’ve also managed to set the scene for the next book in that world. I also changed the title from “Chamberlain’s Curse” to “The Curse of The Jade Cat”. So I’m pretty happy with it; I just want to get it finished so that it can move onto the next stage!

The first book in that world is “Heir of The Dragon” and I’m in the process of giving it the once over, seeing if I can improve it. It’s been given a sparkly new cover – which I will do a big reveal of once I get closer to the time when I can say that the new book will be published… because that also has a wonderful cover by the same Cover Artist and deserves a big build up!

So now you’re all caught up with the World of the Teigr Princess,  I’m signing off until the end of April. Social Media is a huge procrastination station for me, so I need to unplug completely to get things done.

 

Hopefully when I post next, I’ll have two new books to tell you about!

As Satyulemas approaches…

…I start looking back at what has happened to me in a personal sense over the year. 

This year has been one of the most stressful in my life. We started the year losing several of my favourite celebrities. Losing people familiar to me (even in a distant fashion) upsets and unbalances me.
Then we had our Landlords of 13 years decide that they want the house back and give us an eviction notice. Losing familiar places does the same thing as losing familiar people, only ten times worse.

I finally came to terms with the fact that I am as Autistic as my children and partner.  And I am embracing that. No more excusing what I do because Allistic or Neurotypical people think it is weird.

I was trying to figure out what my stim is the other day. Most autistics have them and they provide comfort when we are anxious or stressed as well as signify our joy and happiness. My happy stim is jumping and clapping – that hasn’t changed since I was little, but I couldn’t seem to find my comfort stim…
Then I realised today that I am always doing something with my hands. If I have something with a game or a keyboard on it, I’ll be playing or writing. If I’m too anxious or angry to do that, I knit or craft. If I don’t want to do that, I bake or wash up or draw,

In fact, if I need comfort and have a pen / paper in my hands, I’ll doodle. If I don’t, I tap or fiddle with whatever I can pick up. Most of the time it’s subconscious, but it’s infinitely preferable to getting so upset and anxious that I meltdown.

Now, here we are in a new house with new people to get used to and I’m anxious again… there are too many people in the area, not enough clear space around me and way too much light and noise. But it is something I have to put up with, so I’ll probably be doing a lot of writing, drawing and knitting….

Satyulemas begins on 17th December (handily the weekend after the kids break up) so we’ll put up the decorations, play loud music, have good things to eat and watch some seasonal movies (assuming I can find them in the boxes) before the preparations really get started…